I've never been scared for life after graduation until a long conversation I had with Tyler last night. In a spur of the moment 3 am heart to heart (while trying to finish my Operations take home), Tyler and I tried to fathom the shortcomings of life post senior year. Tyler and I were reliving the glory days of junior year spring semester and realizing that we felt Bucknell was weird this semester without so many of the people who made last semester so amazing.
Somehow the conversation fell into my thoughts of leaving college as being extremely exciting and enthralling. I'm ready for the adventure. I want to live somewhere new. I can't wait to make new friends and meet hundreds of people I've never seen before. I am ever too eager to see where my life begins.
Tyler, however, threw me a curveball when he started asking me if my self now would be proud of myself in 10 years at age 31. I don't know. I'll never know. I worry about that sometimes too. I know so clearly what I want to do right now but what if life doesn't head in that direction. Will I be disappointed in myself for letting my dream go? Or will I be happy where my dream evolved?
Tyler also pushed me to wonder whether life after college is the last big change. Is that the end? Life post grad is the beginning of your life. Will I have new beginnings? Will college have been the best four years of my life? Have I already had the best semester of my life?
AHHHHHHHHHH.....thanks Tyler.
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